Fiona

2011-08-24T09:40:00.002+08:00

Last night when I sleep, I had a very bad dream about my boyf. He did something wrong and he was being send to the NPP. I am so worried for him that I waiting for him. Waited the whole night and he is not being released. I called up uncle danny and ask him how. He came down to wait with me and tell my nothing will happened. After few hours more, in the morning 6 plus am, my boyf is being released. See from his face like nothing happened. But i cant help but to start crying. He have to work to be a policeman for 2 years in his service and know the law but his is breaking the law. After many asking from me, he told me that he will need to pay a fine and need to do some comm service.

After waking up, my boyf text me. So I told him about it. He say he is not so naughty. I really dont want see such thing happened to him. I cant bear to see him like that. He will just need to serve and after that, he will be back to my precious boy who take care of me. Really miss those periods where he will come down to my school and fetch me. He will go around and try to make my happy.

2011-08-18T15:32:00.002+08:00

Finally Friday is arriving. Tomorrow is the day (: Time passes so slow today for me. It is only 3 plus and there are so many hours to night. Time at night passes faster as I able to text and chat with him. Last night, I am so devoted that I tell myself that I really need to start studying for UT 3. But when I am looking at the 6P, I cant stay awake to read through the 6P. Someone please save me. Make me awake to study. Or maybe is just my brain. Studying at night is a better solution for me. In such a weather that is telling me that rain is arriving, make me want to sleep more than studying. In such a body condition, I also want to sleep. Didnt manage to sleep well last night. Wake up a lot of time. But just 3 more days left for me to study. Tonight I shall study atleast 1 module. Every night 1 module. Definitely will help.

2011-08-16T10:56:00.003+08:00

I have never like to be in holiday state. Although I hate going to class, I also do not like being at home. I do not like the way how unfair it is at home. If I am at home, why everything is my fault. If I am not at home, also my fault. I really cant take it. I really want to cry out. So I can feel better. But you are not around. who can be with me. I wish that you are around for me. I am not that brave. I am not that brave to face all this by myself. But I believe, I can be brave to wait for you.

2011-08-12T14:31:00.004+08:00

Today is the 3rd day my boy had enter HTA. There are still 7 more days where I will be able to see him again. Time passes slowly and he is coming to my mind every now and then. I cant stop thinking of him. How I wish things never change. How I wish time are like the past, where he will always by my side and be with me. Now knowing how he in until at night, really make my mind run wild. I do not want things to happen this way. I need him badly. I need him by my side and take care of me. Time in the weekdays passes so slow, what about weekends? It will definitely be harder to survive this weekend. The only thing I can do is sleep and watch show on a weekend. Where else can I go without you around?

I admit I depend a lot on you. Boy, please endure. I believe you can do it this 3 months of BMT. After this 3 months, everything will be better for you.

我答应你，我会等你出来。

我一样会爱你多多的。

我好好好想你。

我晚上睡不，吃也吃不下。因为我分分秒秒都在想你。

2011-08-11T22:48:00.002+08:00

Back from having dinner with my group of friends. They talk to me about how's my boy inside army and stuff. They are making me to feel better, asking me to cheer up. Laugh and have fun together, making me feel better but I still miss him a lot. Time pass faster when I am with them compare to staying at home and watching show. Had a small chat with boyf over the phone, can tell that he is bored in there and I can tell that he is not adapt to that place and want me to chat with him on the phone. I really wish I can talk to him on the phone. But his battery life is not that much left and there are so many days left. He is alone in there but I have friends with me. I think he indeed suffer more than me. Wonder did he cry while thinking of me. I cant think of him when I am alone. I admit I will cry as I am not that brave afterall. I admit I am weak inside. I cry easily.

Boy, endure okay? Girl will wait for you out here. Another 8 more days. I believe you can do it. First few days might be bored. Next week I believe will be better and time will pass faster. No matter what, I will wait for you out here.

2011-08-11T09:52:00.002+08:00

Why!!! I am still unable to adapt to you not around. Time really passes very slow. Counting down to 8 more days that you are able to be back. I not sure how long I can endure. But I will try.

2011-07-13T23:23:00.002+08:00

I dont think anyone will read this post. But I am seriously angry and I really want to say it out. Although there is someone that I can speak to, but I know saying it here and telling that someone is the same.

School had being so tired and stress for me. I know my grade are bad. I know I pay not enough attention to the class. But who understand me. Who know all that topic to me is soooo difficult? Who understand what I am going through. I have being keeping a lot of stuff to myself, didnt want to say it out, cause i know saying out make no difference. But my heart cant take it anymore. Being sick and going through classes, pretend I am alright. Showing other that I am alright and not sick is hard. Whenever I read your comment in the daily grade, do you know. I feel that I am just a useless people out there. But do you know. I am already doing my best. I didn't plagiarism other people work. I have my own dignity that I won't do such thing to submit to you. I don't expect to get very good grade for you. Getting a C every week from you is good enough for me already.

BB is another form of adding stress to me. Seeing how people look at me has always being a thing that I will do. Seeing myself as a girl that went back to BB to serve is something that I should not be proud of. I know being a girl out of soooo many boys, is not a good thing. I know this will happen even before I enter to serve. People do say me for what bring all this suffering to myself. To them, I am like bringing trouble to myself. But I believe that all this are just my imagination. Things won't go as bad as what I thought. But all this thing is all controlled. Things did happened the way how I thought before I enter. I know that I am a girl, but dont think I can't do much thing as you guys. I think I can do equal amount of you guys. If you guys don't give me chance to prove to you guys. I do not know what else I can do to make you guys change your point of view.

Being in this world is it something that I should be proud of? Sometime I think that if I am not in this world, many things will be much better. In class, people will not have problem working with me in a team. Will not know such a useless people. In BB, I will not be sandwich by people. I will not face so much problem that make me lose confidence in myself. Only problem that I think of that I can't find a solution is. If I am not in this world, will my boyf find a better girl than me. If he can find a better girl, then I really think that, I come to this world is a wrong choice. There is nothing that in this world, make me priceless. I am just not that worth that people will not treasure.

2nd day of baby not around.

2011-06-24T09:04:00.002+08:00

Actually on the first day night I wanna continue writing however I am unable to load. Nevermind, I can continue writing today. Last night I cant get to sleep. I am thinking, afterall, I still unable to totally without having you by my side the whole day. But at night when we whatsapp, I feel very contented to have that a bit of time to chat with you. When come to saying bye to end the day, I realise, saying bye to you is hard for me. I tell myself, cannot cry, you will be coming back soon.

Seeing your text and your Whatsapp, I am contented. 1st day pass very fast. Hopefully today also can pass very fast. Knowing you need to go out to the sea, I am worry for you. Praying that you will be alright for the trip. Hoping that you will keep textimg me so that I will be able to know that you are alright. Okay. Gonna start lesson le. Will continue again tonight.

Iloveyou

Imissyou

Baby off to Tioman Island

2011-06-23T15:05:00.003+08:00

I think I am coping well for the 1st day when baby is off to Tioman Island. I indeed miss him a lot but then I cant change to fact that he is away for 3 days. I believe that 3 days will pass very fast. At least he is there to sms me to let me know that he is fine. I believe that he is trying his way to get connection to the wifi to communicate with me for free using whatsapp. Actually I dont mind him using the Starhub Sim card to chat with me even thought it is expensive. Hope he is there to enjoy himself and not worrying about me coping alone is Singapore. I know that I am afraid being alone and the feeling is so not nice having my boyf away from me. But I think I will be able to cope. Do not worry for me alright. I will cope for this 3 days without you. I will take care of myself. Really hope that you take care of yourself over there and I know I am naggy but I hope that you rmb whatever I say to you for the past few days. Alright. I will post again tonight or tml when I am free. Preparing to go for UT soon. I promised you that I will study. I indeed study but only the first 3 Problem. Dont worry, I will try my best during the UT itself.

Iloveyou

Imissyou

2009-12-31T18:33:00.002+08:00

have been 4 days since i last post.this 4 days i am like just hurry up let the time past.and in a blink.baby is coming back tml.going to airport to find him.asking ru bin and hui tian to tag along.but i not sure whether they can not..and i also haven let my mummy know whether i can go not..haha..later gonna tell him..cause i wanna pass baby back his mushroom..if not at night he cant sleep.haha..today is last day of 2009..is so fast..1 whole year just pass like that.many things happened..but i did overcome all the things and finish this year.next yr i wanna study hard and be a good girl..haha..i think is kinda hard to achieve.but i will try.the 1st day of the year really hope i able to go out.i wanna see baby as soon as he is back..haha..cant wait for it..okay..i shall stop here..post again tml..bye.

baby coming back..
super miss him lo..
want to see him asap..

2009-12-27T18:20:00.002+08:00

5 more days baby then he is back.1 more week to 16 months.today my sister birthday we went out to eat for lunch.during the lunch.my parents was talking to my brother that i should go get a job during weekdays lo.if not like wasting time.finally they allowed me to find a job.but they want me to work at cold storage.is like haix..cant choose..soo okay lo.go see whether cold storage wanna let me work not lo.then i sunday will still be working for the starhub thingy.that is a must.cause can work with baby.normally sunday used to it working but today never work is like feel so weird.cause like go so many hours need to pass.dont know how to spend lo.just now reached home around 3.30pm.then we played the monopoly deal and went down to vista.so now here i am posting at 6.30pm.later gonna see newspaper to check jobs available.so i gonna stop here..bye..
baby..faster come back ): waiting for you to be back ):

2009-12-26T21:28:00.002+08:00

hellossss... back home from a day out with winona and my parents.morning around 11 plus met winona.went to tampines to shop.bought things and stuff.. i spend so much for shopping out the past few days.i am like ughhh.update my bankbook today..and i am curios why there is $49 in to the bank for 3 weeks.i told winona and she say..your salary la..i was like.omg..so stupid.that i forget about my salary.talking about salary.i am not working tml..my sister birthday tml.so we might be going out to eat. i am not sure for lunch or dinner.my mummy just allowed me to have something which i am like so happy.finally.after so many attempts.haha.. when baby is back..i definitely will share the news with him immediately.confirm.6 more days baby is coming back..and 8 more days to our 16 months together.i am so happy..everything is arriving in a fast speed.haha..for us to spend our 16 months together..will be when we work..as 8 days later we both are working..haha..i dont mind like that spend together.afterall is the whole day.haha.
just now play deal card with my siblings.everything went smoothly during the first match..however.2nd match when my younger brother joined in..my brother and my younger brother quarrel.and the game just ended like that.was like errrr...first time we like that sat down and play together and it fail to last long.
okay..i shall stop here..lazy to type.and and and..i got 3 big blister from the day out..
baby.i miss you and love you alot alot.waiting for you to be back.

2009-12-25T22:48:00.002+08:00

today is christmas.everyday post here is cause i got alot of words for baby.today got 2 cousin ask me about baby.i was like why must they ask.i am already suffering without baby in singapore.this is what the conversation:
me: sister, can help me get my hp.
cousin: who text?boyfriend ah?
me:errr..nope..is nazirah..bf not in singapore.
after i say she kept quiet.i am like so hurt.
just unwraped all the gifts.i will rather not to have any gifts than without baby by my side.tml gonna start doing the cross stitch again.had stop doing for so many days.cause for the past few days i still unable to settle my heart down and not to think about baby.hopefully by tml i able to do so.today.something happen.and yet.i am the victim again.everything happened and i am is the victim.how can they like that.i am like so hurt lo.have they ever consider my feeling?why must be when baby is not around and so many things happened?is like when i need him so much by my side lo.
tml i gonna go out with winona to tampines.i dont wanna stay at home.i rather go out and spend my time outside.this will make me feel better.gonna look for dress for tuesday's wedding dinner.

can someone tell me isit i am being so stupid to wait every night for him to come online?but this is the only way that i able to know how is he.no matter how late i also willing to wait.but the problem is the timing over there is 6 hours of difference.when is midnight 2 to 3.there is only 8 to 9 pm lo.oh maybe the hotel that he is staying does not have any wireless internet.that make him unable to sign in to leave me any offline msg.am i really silly to wait?can anyone understand what i feel?how can they simply say that aiya,10 days very fast over de la.althought 10 days can be say is quite short but my heart is like cant endure.how i wish tml is 1st jan already lo.so i can see my baby le lo.but i think these 10 days maybe is a test for us.let us see whether our love can endure the test not.maybe cause during these 1 year plus with him.we went thru alot of hardship.so i tresure him more than towards any of my ex.he is just too important to me.
okay.i shall stop here.post again tml night.hope miracle happened.
i love baby and miss baby alot alot.

do He hear my prayer?
my word to Him is so important.
does He heard my words to him?

2009-12-24T19:22:00.002+08:00

Baby had been overseas for 2 days already. 2 days.this 2 days really hard to endure..but there is nothing i can do to faster the day.but must thanks to those who accompany me this 2 days.luckily with you all around to kill my boredness..accompany me to text and even out with me to buy gifts and everything.listen to my nonsense.today is christmas eve le.tml is christmas le.another year of christmas which is kinda bored.last yr i was not around in singapore.this yr is baby turn who is not in singapore.i really hope that there is one yr that we both can spend all the festival together.will next yr be the yr?

yesterday waited for baby you to come online to see my offline msg.
i not sure whether isit there is not internet for you to come online or you are too tired to do so.
i not sure how are you doing now over there.
all these feeling are just like when we seem to be separated unwillingly just like the past.
last time is i hurt baby alot.now is the other way round.
i know baby are not gonna leave me alone forever.
but i dont sense the security.baby's promise seems to be easily broken.
many worries are in my mind.
i need more courage to face all different difficulties.
i need to be more brave and learn to be independent.

many things happened last night.do you see what i left for you at the msn.
do you know at that moment.i really hope you can suddenly appear infront of me to console me.
do you know is my first time overcoming this alone.
do you know i put a fake face to everythings that i went thru last night.
how i wish when the quarrel take place, i able to tell you immediately.
so you can text me back and tell me.is okay..dont bother about it.
everything make me feel so extra in the world without you.

today many things happened as well.
i did not able to finish shopping for the christmas gift that i wanted to buy.
not sure whether tml i able to go out and buy it.
my mummy all today came back late.as if there are still many hours for the day.
today morning without baby text early in the morning.i unable to wake up on time to meet rubin.
is like many thing getting weird without baby's by my side for these few days.
can the time pass even faster?everything i use to see my phone for baby's text.
now i dont.i would rather throw my phone aside just to forget he is not around.
many things i unable to achieve alone.like letting the time pass.
i am trying to my best to plan lots of activities that wont make me bored.
i would rather spend more time outside.and let time pass.come back home atlest wont be alone.
miss those nights that i spend talking on the phone with baby.those call make me sleep better.
these two days i unable to fall alseep so easily cause without the phone.
yesterday i fall alseep around 2 just to turn around on the bed to get asleep.
hopefully tonight wont be like that again ba.just take it that baby is in camp.
many things happened and i learn to stand firm.
just met yan ling.she pass me christmas gift.and yet.i never bought any for her.
maybe tml buy for her.recieve one text from her and i am glad to see that few words.
i think i gonna stop here.if not when baby is back.he will have to read for a long time to finish just one post.
gonna wrap all the giftsssss..
baby's gift i will pass him when he is back and i promised i will make it before he is back.
i love you baby.
i miss you baby.
i need you baby.
muackssssssss.

2009-12-22T22:33:00.002+08:00

accept it?am i really able to accept the fact?or i am just blindly bluffing myself that i have accept it. he is leaving to a 8000+ km away from singapore.is a fact.but why cant i just tell myself to accept it.isit really that difficult.wondering how other couples able to accept it.10 days without any of his news. probably first few days are abit hard.but i filled myself with activities.wondering really this activities can make me stop my mind from running wild.sat onwards will be harder.without any activities.next tues will be my cousin's wedding. seeing many couples together.and yet i cant even had a single contact with my boyfriend.is so suffering. i really hope now God can tell me.how i can let go of this suffering.how i can overcome this problem.
i know every now and then when he is away.i will pray for his safety and health.cause i found out the weather over there.is nasty.and the place i just find it unsafe to travel.many problems not we can solve.just like this.going overseas are decided by parents.just like when i go malaysia.is so hard to bear the suffering.but is only for 3 days.i can endure it.10 days i think is impossible.probably i will just spend my time doing nothing.sleep?stonning?hopefully family dont come and disturb me.if not they will only recieve nasty reply.i think i unable to control my temper over small conversation with them.2 hours more?he should be on his way to airport?flight midnight 2am.i not sure whether i able to sleep after he left tonight.probably after a few hours i will get to sleep.at first wanna sent him off at airport.but midnight no transport back home except taxi.so drop the idea.plan to spend the whole day with him today since morning.in the end.fail to achieve.no more chance.
i think i shall stop here ba.is like if i continue more.i not sure i able to control my feeling.
when i online the next few days i then post again.also must see whether i able to control my feeling when posting.i does not want my family to know what happened to me.
i super love my boyfriend.
i super miss my boyfriend.
i super hate to see him leave.
i super want him to be my side.
can i have this selfish wish.
asking him to be my side and not leaving me?
asking him to love me and miss me more than me?
asking him to be careful and come back safely and healthly?

2009-11-07T00:14:00.005+08:00

i just got the feeling to post now.now is already 12 plus and i just dont have the mood to go sleep now.althought i am tired.but just felt that now is not the time to sleep.probably after i let what my mind is thinking over here.

my boy is very busy.i just wish to spend more time with him before he go oeverseas.he going overseas for so many days that i definitely will be just wasting my time by letting day pass like that.i am afraid i cant keep him by my side forever.the frightening feeling do you understand ma.the hardshipp that we went through is for a purpose.which is i want to be with you forever eh.ever since my mummy know got your presence.i have try my very very very to listen to her.study hard for my o's.that is for what.for being able to be with you.she ask me do things i will never day no.i have try my very very very best to be her ever best daughter can do for the past few months.i have done what i can.but i cant help it.i am feeling so idiot.why i am so selfish.why i cant think from your view.maybe you also dont want all this to happen?maybe is i am too sensitive.maybe i am just so bad.maybe since the day we together.you had being suffering.or maybe since we toghether you had being enduring me.i cant promise there wont be next time.i cant contro my feeling.once i am sad for that day.i definitely will want to tell you.i want you to know what i am feeling right now.but something i dont want to say.scared you are too bothered by it.scared you find me annoying.maybe so far you can tolerate all this.i am just so sorry.i will try my best to be a good gf to you.i will try to be myself everyday without thinking so much.cause you had done alot as a part for a bf.its my turn to play a part as a gf.

o's is finishing.many things are still the same.nothing had improved.everything remain the same.the problem just like a jigsaw puzzle.last time was in a proper place.everything is piece together.now.everything is like messed up.there are missing piece.which cannot make everything back into whole one piece.i know they wont want to find this missing piece back.they cant be bother with this stupid one piece.maybe last time this piece had done alot of bad thing.that cause all this to happen.past few weeks i pretended to be strong.dont let all this push or pull me down.just for the o's.however.always see them.the strong me will not be strong anymore.i just want to erase all the moments we had.let my memories inside does not content you all.isnt it better?or their memories without me.i think it will be better.

i find myself that i am the extra one in the world.to my family.i seem to be the worse one.imaging without me in the family.i think it will be more complete.maybe without me.the jigsaw puzzzle will definitely will be pieced preperly everytime.maybe without me.he able to find someone much much much better than me.i find that i am the caused of everything.will someone just tell me whether it is true.my feeling who understand?my endurance had reach a limit.had reached to the place where i cant endure anymore.i just want to do something that can make me feel better.but i know it wont help.it will only make my bf sad.

i shall stop here.will find anytime to post.hope someone can understand how i feel.
Bye.

boy.
i will cherish you.
i know i am thinking too much.
this is nothing compared to what we had suffer last time.
to get to a better height.there must be obstacles.
this are just a small one.big ones we had overcome.
i make sure this as well.
i love you.

2009-10-18T11:40:00.002+08:00

hello...a few days to O's. was kinda worried and nervous on how will i be performing for the paper.espically english paper. previously a lot of stuff happened. i have tried very hard not to be affected by it. however it is hard to avoid it. i had tried my very best. left tue in school and that will be the last day that the whole class will be together. miss those moment that the whole class share together. with so much thing happened. i am really grateful to have some people by my side such as melvin my super nice bf , winona my super long bestie , yi juan my super nice mei , gatsper and wk my best mates and of course jesslyn my super nice friend. i will not forget them in my life. graduation day over and many fond memories are brought back. well. everything is over. just have to face it and accept it. now more important is to do my best in the upcoming O's.

boy. i got update already okay. dont say i never okay. many things happened and i am glad that you are by my side. you are the nicest boyfriend i ever had. 1 year 2 months with you is really nice and fun. there will be many many more years and months to be coming. definitely. okay . i shall stop here. i gonna study again. my life is either study or eat or sleep and not to forget my life also revolve around for my boyfriend and super friends mention above.

all i want to say to my boyfriend is

i love you.

i miss you.

you are precious to me.

i will never let you go.

2009-09-11T17:53:00.000+08:00

my blog seems dead.very long never post already.busy studying for o level which will be arriving in 48 days??that fast alright.got back our prelim result.so far only my e math improve.the rest drop.even my a math.i did not study for my prelim hard enough lo.so i gonna spend my time studying for o level le.not going to waste my time anyhow.i fail my combined humanities badly.i had dissapointed alot of teacher.mdm foon, miss eleora and mdm kan.i know they have high expectation in my result.however i did not do well for them.i will try to do well the next exam.even for mock exam.my table everything is so messy.dont even have the mood to pack the table.everywhere is my TYS for different subjects.oh ya.somemore miss leow calculated for us.7 subjects students will spend 1 week studying for 1 subjects.everything seems so rush.omg la.i scare later i study until mad la.this few days so far i does not touch any book to study or homework until yesterday lo.haix..gonna mugggggg hard le..
yesterday just went to watch movie with boy.watched G Force.yesterday also finally boy happy again.after something happened.i promise they wont be such thing happen again.i love you..muackssss...
reader please burden me for not posting.as i hardly will be using com as i gonna study for the big o's that are arriving.

2009-08-09T12:57:00.002+08:00

it has being a long time since i last post.schooling has being so boring.everyday having so many remedial lesson.leave school as late as around 6pm.had lesser and lesser time seeing my dar.that what i hate most.longest without seeing each other is 2 weeks like that lo.just met him yesterday.as going to school for lesson.wonder when is the next time seeing him again.how i wish he can 24 hours by my side.my hand is giving me a huge problem.hardly can move much.somemore i bend and take things it will hurt so much..i had endure the pain for many hours.since last night la.had a horrible sleep last night.my hand hurts that i hardly get to sleep..somemore when i finaly get to sleep.i was awake by a horrible dream.see my phone for the timing.i realise i only slept for 1 hour plus.why must i have the hprrible dream.at this moment..do i really forsee this problem coming up.

how i wish i can ignore her pressence la.i know to dar that whatever i say is stupid now la.cause he had stop thinking about it.but what about her.so what she got bf already.does that mean he got bf she would have stop thinking of you?this dream will it come true?i dont want it to come true eh.once it really come true.my dar will not be by side anymore.she would have took him away.my mind can just stop flashing her?i hate it.i am so sorry that i mentioning her again and again.but i just cant stop thinking about it.even it has already past for 1 year plus alreadx.dar.can understand my feeling?you know.crying is the only thing i can do now.cause i really scare to lose you.

2009-06-02T21:33:00.002+08:00

yesterday finish O's mt paper..i dont think i will be getting good result out of it..paper 1 was so distracted by the person sitting me..didnt really focus on the compo that i am writing..but paper 2 was indeed a helpful paper for me..manage to finish the paper.well.forget it..its over..what i can do is just wait for the result..today was just a horrible day for me la..had a math in the morning..the new chapter that teacher is teaching now is so difficult..something that i dont like.got to do with properties of circle..after which..had our dnt intensive lesson..during lunch time.many people came back late.teacher does not bother about the reason.he just ask them wrote letter why they are late.after writing they are ask to leave the class.such a small matter they just kick a big fuss out of it.during dnt..major case happened to my HANDPHONE..sylvia dropped it..i immediately just cried out.i never drop my handphone before okay..but while.i cant turn back the time.after that went up to find boy..seriously..i almost want to cry again lo..cause he say i bad..he seem sad and angry..before i return to class i didnt manage to make peace..i was afraid he really angry with me..after dnt..i went to find him again..in the end..he bluff me de..i so want to cry out la..dont know why today just want to cry..i dont like..everything dont seem to go the way i want..well..dont say about it la..wanna watch my show soon..
tml is our 10 month together..unable to spend the precious day together..but all i wish is we able last long lo.it a long long way that we had came..but they is a longer way to go..
iloveyou.
imissyou.
muacksss.
<3

2009-05-28T20:13:00.002+08:00

days getting lesser to o level mt paper..to be exact..its 4 more days.its so fast okay.tml is meet the parents session already..i am not scare about the result that my parent gonna recieve..its what teacher gonna say..what if she will be saying about me and boy..i think i may as well dig my grave first.in case i need it.
in this 10 days.many things happened.went for 3 days of training just for RP race.sat is the RP race..due to the heavy rain.we had to stop the race.we all are so disappointed with it..but we cant stop the rain from coming..can say that the race is my 1st race..i dont think i will join anymore race..cause i believe that this time the race all the training had make us the whole group like a big family..can share everything..meal together..spend time in school and even training..that is something hardly other people can achieve..whatever it is..the race is over..but we are still bond together.not only now..i believe we will still be the same as time goes by.
june holiday for other is arriving..but for me is not..everyday still got lesson.it is hard to endure lo..but what to do..taking O's this year.many thing need to learn.got extra lesson and ever mock exam..hopefully i can make use of this time to study for what i should know for exam.
gonna stop here..nothing much..hope tml MTP wont be so bad..
iloveyou.
imissyou.
whataboutyou?
whateveritis.
iloveyouverymuch.

2009-05-18T14:20:00.003+08:00

today finally finish all the mid year papers..finally..tml everybody was having a holiday due to marking day..but i have to be back to school for the RP race training..i am very tired la..study for the exam all..i had my hair cut yesterday..kind of weird..but i like it..feel so relax..dont need to tie somemore..tml and thur boy no school..but these two days i got training..so sian lo..but nevermind..training for sat..the actual day..sat getting nearer and nearer..nervous neh..wondering how it will be like..scared drag down the team.but i know most important is the process of the event..okay la..shall stop here..will post again when i am free..

2009-05-12T14:34:00.002+08:00

today phyiscs paper..was like 1hr 15 mins paper..i did it finish in 45 mins??was like super fast la..might not do it alright..think that i will fail lo..haha..never mind..my dar very smart ma..i also want take a nap..but he want to sleep..ask me wake up up at 3pm.ask me to sleep only after he went for his car thingy today..so okay lo..wait for 3pm to wake him up.just recieve a call from mummy.the new maid unable to arrive..as her country got typoon..her house was like gone..so she cant set her heart down to come over and work..in the end..i still have to be doing housework..after school need to rush back home to fetch my didi from school all..for this period of time..my house will be like so empty..no one around in the afternoon until my brothers are back..haha..okay la..shall stop here..tml is geography and e math paper 2..comfirm falling paper will be geography..haha.

iloveyou.
imissyou.
whataboutyou.
everythingforyouwillbealrightya
dontbroadoveritalready
letitpass

2009-05-04T17:28:00.002+08:00

wohooo...i did something bad yesterday..i forgetten yesterday was our 9th month together..sat went to study in school and went to RP to study as well..yesterday i went to study with yi juan.derek and yang keng..was not a bad one..just that only when derek first step into RP.he was like saying.i gonna rmb this moment.it was 2.36pm and it was 3rd of may..i was like what..today is the 3rd?i look to yi juan and she say ya..is the 3rd..so i immediately sms dar and ask..you know today what day ma?he say ya..not like you..study until forgot..i was like omg la...how can i forget..its mine first time forget la..haha..that whole day like feel weird..i must be dsomething wrong that i forget..nevermind..i will rmb all the rest of the months de..i wont forget anymore le..haha..last night had a weird dream..i wake up and i was like..how can i dream such thing..today morning everyone had to walk by front gate..got visual scanning..cause of the H1N1 virus thingy..singapore is in the orange zone..next is red..so kinda dangerous..so everyday got twice temperature taking..also heard from friends that our mid year paper no longer in the hall.back to classroom le..maybe cannot have large group in a room ba..okay la.gonna stop here..gonna study for examination.

9months and pass
and
i am still counting.
more months to come.
will never leave you.
iloveyou.
imissyou.
muacksss!!!

2009-05-01T20:46:00.002+08:00

now is exam period.getting more and more stressed for exam..but i have tried my very best to focus..put aside all problems.just focus for that paper on that particular day..but i find it hard..i find that i am not studying hard enought this year..every subjects grade are dropping..maybe miss leow is correct lo..i dont put in enough effort..i am just too tired to study everytime..ughh..but no matter how tired am i.i must try my very best..that what i tell myself..this year not a nice year..serious for everything..okay la..shall stop here..i dont know what else to post le.

i am very tired.
will you support me.
i dont know how long i can hold on.
i just feel like bursting.
my mind are very full.
very stressed.
many things to accomplished.
but i dont have the strength to hold on.
i am getting weaker day by day.
be it emotional or physical.
asthma coming my way again.
i just hate it.
when then can it be permanent gone.

2009-04-25T19:56:00.002+08:00

okay..back to posting.if not boy gonna say i very bad never post.this one whole week many things happened..some was unpleasant stuff..some was still not bad..boy was sick yesterday..hope he will get well soon.today was my turn..like gonna sick..stomach was not that well..one whole week miss leow is not in singapore.she went back to sydney to recieve her certificate..she gave the class many tests..she scare she got nth to mark after coming back..no la..she wanted to use this time to give us test.so atleast we can prepare ourselves for the examination coming next week..conflicts between friends all these stuff i not gonna bother..at this point of time i dont think it is important lo.study examination i find it more important..so i will jus focus on it..whatever it is truth will eventually shown..tuition started yesterday..everything was alright..did physics..got more understanding from the teacher.so i can score better for my examination that are coming up.anyway..join the RP race..yi juan huitian derek isaac fabian all..we gonna train hard for the race..i am in the team with derek and isaac..scared that i pull them down lo.i so weak..yet they so strong..everything to them is just easy easy can be done..i not lo..but i believe i can do my best..i will try very hard..okay..gonna stop here..post again when i am free..

i love you
i miss you
what about you

2009-04-18T14:26:00.004+08:00

just came back from school not long..going to study at library with jesslyn and maybe taufiq..at anyplace can study except at home..dont have the mood to study at home..haha..yesterday met boy..finally..after 1 week..haha..hyper eh..todat also got saw him..in school..haha..the funniest thing is when i with sylvia and him eh..laughing..haha..okay la..i wanna go take a shower le..going out soon..anything text me.will post again...maybe when i am back..

miss you..

back from studying..alrights..stay out for almost 5 hours..study for like 3 hours plus..went for dinner and bought my this story book..i ask my mummy can buy not..she say got read then buy lo..so..i decided to buy..haha..haven start reading it yet..but..soon will start reading it..haha..some matter on my mind now..not sure how..haha..today spend lots of time studying eh..morning went back to school..afternoon study with jesslyn and taufiq..haha..will continue study more..8 more weekdays mid year exam start..scared la..must try hard to get my targetted grades..okay..shall stop here..

iamthinkingaboutyou.
causeimissyou.
causeineedyou.
causeyouareimportanttome.
causeiloveyoumorethananyone.

2009-04-13T18:52:00.002+08:00

first day of the week and i am lazy to go school already..i just hope time can stop here..dont need go any other second..i dont want wed to arrive as i know.on that day.what i expect it to be will be very different..without him..everything is different.i know.i definitely be sad.but i dont want to force him.i believe he dont mean it.i know asking to be out on wed is a stupid way of action.but i at that moment just wish that he could be with me at that moment.i know i may be asking for too much.so now i just dont expect things happen at my wish..just let everything happen by itself..dont set expectation too high.if not dissapointment higher..had gone thru that painful time many times..so i understand.whatever it is..i dont expect anything i expect to happen anymore..
today did the flag raising..everything was alright..just that it went up slow..unable to reach just nice the music stop..will try again tml..physics test was hard la..if can pass that paper its miracle..haha..tml will be geo test..hopefully today when i do the paper..i able to memories the notes and do for the test tml..haha..okay..shall stop here..past again when i have the time.

ilovemyboysomuch.
imissmyboysomuch.
ineedmyboysomuch.
iwantmyboybymyside.
allmyliferevolvearoundyou

2009-04-11T18:09:00.003+08:00

my boy say i very bad cause for 1 week i never post le..haha.okay la..i shall post today then.i gonna do flag raising for the whole week..cant believe it right..everyday school got so much homework..its like cant do finish de..however..i try my best to finish all okay..test every now and then as mid year is just 2 weeks later..and on the 24 there is e learning day again..waste one day of studying..never mind..study myself..haha..just watch finish the series of invicible shan bao mei..now watching starlit..its nice la..while doing homework catching to watch finish finish the series..haha..4 more days..he will make me very happy de right?definitely right..going out with friends and him..cant wait for that day as i able to see him..but also dont want that day to arrive faster..as grow older by 1 age is bad..old le lo..haha..okay la..dont want post le..haha..

i love you so much..
i miss you so much also..
you?

2009-04-04T17:02:00.002+08:00

dont know what to post..currently studies and homework seem to be pile up even thought i did my homework..all i can do is weekend study more that normally..tml got to wake up very early as my family we are meeting our relative at the cemetry by 5.30am to pray to my grandparents.yesterday was me and dar the 8 months..fast right..haha..but there are a long more way to go..11 more days..i gonna turn a year older..haha..okay la..shall stop here..gonna do some homework..

missing him..

2009-03-23T17:33:00.002+08:00

back from camp on sat night..i was very very tired as fri night only slept for 30 mins or so..not in the mood to sleep as i want to finish my homework first..while doing..it was already 4 am in the morning..was awake as i thought i falling off the bench in the canteen..see the time is only 4.32am??so was like seeing everybody sleeping already..so i just put my face on the table with my pooh..haha..slowly all of them also waking up as it was going to 7am..we have our physical training..what i cant believe is i not enough sleep still can run without stopping..normally i cant even finish 1 round la..the whole camp was not so nice but still not bad..it just that the camp committee set their tone wrong in the very beginning..that why all the camper find the camp boring..on sat afternoon..its raining heavy..but yi juan,jia ming and me did the camp fire thingy..i sang rain rain go away..hope that the rain go away..it did went away at 6.15pm like that..but when is it 6.30 again..the rain started again..we was so dissapointed la.did so much..somemore hand smelt full of kerosene..damn smelly..so no choice had the talent time in the hall..dar came back from AQ half way through the talent time..went out of the hall to see him..i ke lian him..he must have really went through a hard time during AQ training..hurt pain to see him like that..but nvm..its his bb ma..must be happy that he is back can le neh..haha..okay la..shall stop here..got nth to say le..will post in a few days time or maybe whenever i am free..

dar..
i love you so much.
i miss you so much as well.
i hope to see you soon..
hope friday hurry up arrived..

2009-03-18T17:55:00.002+08:00

this whole week very tiring..lesson start at 8 and lesson end at 4 plus..worse than normal school days..this friday will be going to camp already till sat night..so i dont think will post until sunday..sunday morning still got tuition early in the morning..kinda lazy to go..these few days of dnt course is so boring..i find it so useless la..not really help much in our ideation...somemore at aircon classroom..so cold la..out of all places i sit under the fan..oh ya..somemore now my house got new maid le..the old maid go back le..have to teach the new maid everything all over again..honestly this job to teach maid is not fun at all..my mummy got a hard time to teach her..her english also not good..my mummy never work for 5 days just to teach her..now she is back to work so i have to take over from her..but my school end so late..take today as example..i reached home haven even put down my bag..my didi and mei mei ask me to call my mummy to ask her what for dinner and everything..dnt like way back cant catch up..come back home still like that..how i wish can give up on dnt..but cant la..nvm..endure for 2 month plus for mt paper.and 4 month plus for dnt then can focus more on other paper le..this year is the final lap..must give to the best..okay..gonna stop here..gonna help my maid in dinner..

i love my dar to the max!!
i miss my dar to the max!!
loving and missing you everynow and then..

2009-03-14T14:24:00.002+08:00

dar currently in camp..today got see him for a few mins..cause i am back to school to take result..i dont like the result i recieve for my english and humanities..once i get my result..i called him..he was just downstairs having his lunch and yet i call him..i told him my result..all i want is his words of concern..but nvm..i not that blank out after recieving my result..i agree with what miss leow say..so what if all my math,a math and science got As..but english F9..cant even go anyway..not even ITE la..nvm..gonna work double hard for my english and humanities..
i very miss my dar..i just wish tml can hurry up arrived la..that the day he finish camp..i will be very very happy..when recieved hid message last night around 2 plus i was very happy..even thought i slept then wake up upon recieving his message..at least i know what going on..just now a math lesson i am very happy as well as i able to meet him for that few mins..which is very blessed..haha..how am i gonna survive this long days without his sms..yesterday i survived by sleeping..doing homeworks and everything..okay..shall stop here..tired le..maybe will go sleep awhile..

All i want is your
LOVE
CARE
and
CONCERN.
cause
I
LOVE
YOU
<3

2009-03-12T20:09:00.002+08:00

my mummy told me something that make it scared la..i dont want my mummy to go..scare later she tell my mummy about something she shouldn't say..how..at first my mummy say she dont want go..lazy..then now she say she dont know..see how..she say see how my head pain..thinking will she tell..what will happen after my mummy go meet her..ughhh...how..just 2 days away..
tml dar going to camp le..for 3 days..will miss him very much de..will recieve lesser sms..will know lesser about what is he doing and everything..i gonna miss him very much..
got our timetable for extra lesson during the march holiday..mon to fri got lesson..then fri and sat is camp..sun morning tuition le..so many things..dont like..but atleast can enjoy myself during the camp..haha..got lots of homework for march holiday le..even got lesson..haix..this year gonna choing all the way le..o level very very important to me..okay la..gonna stop here..dont know what to post le..confused...dont know what my mummy decision..

2009-03-07T15:05:00.004+08:00

back from flag day..went to AMK there to do flag day..cherilyn,sylvia and me went together..we was like asking ppl to donate..alot of ppl donate..sylvia was kinda pissed..cause hardly ppl donate for her..so i help her lo..we manage to get atleast half of the tin full..and at home was bored..nth to do..watch show..waiting for dar to reply me..he having meeting in school..just yesterday met dar and now already missing him so much...at first wanna go this concert with sylvia de..but she say she cant make it..so ask dar he want not..but he say too late so ask Qi and sock yan want go not..but they cant make it..so i return the ticket to cherilyn..just call my mummy..she was out and later coming back soon..she say wanna go malaysia..i dont want..i want to stay in singapore la..if not will miss dar more..i also want to watch happily ever after..i very sleepy..i want sleep..but cant get to sleep..my back very pain lo..cant endure it le..endure it since morning..paste salonpas dont seem to have any improvement..okay la..shall stop here..will post again whenever i am free then..

iLOVEmy DARalot..
iMISSmyDARalso..
iWONTleavemyDARnomatterwhat..
causeijustLOVEmyDARthatmuch..
ILOVEYOU TOTHEMAX!

2009-03-06T19:59:00.002+08:00

everything back to normal for 1 week..damn happy about it..i gonna treausre you more than before..today went to spend my time with dar..damn happy..very long nvr go out just the two of us..watch movie with him as well..i wont forget this precious day de..wahaha...when i see the words me too in the notes i am super happy..as well when you type dont think too much silly gal i also very happy lo...today i really really very happy..tml will be able to see him again..after tml the very next time will be next week fri le..one week once..just this year..very fast de..next time can always meet le..oh ya..dar get his posting le..dont think too much about the result..you will eventually go poly as long as you do well..i believe you can de..as long as you study well..you make this goal to poly you will meet your goal de..determination is everything..work hard in highernitec year 1 lo..then can le..okay..shall stop here..want go bath then continue to do some dnt..

dar..
iloveyou
totheMAX!!

2009-02-26T19:36:00.002+08:00

will everything be alright?be back to normal?what should you do?i hope you can forget her and be with me of course..but i know is hard for you..but will you try very hard for my sack..i not sure whether she still thinking about you not..but i just hope you can be my side..i cant loss you..i feel terribly hurt..just thinking that i will loss you i will cry out..you promise wont leave me..you say you love me..but now you say that i am hurt.can you understand how i feel.i tried to sleep last night..but i cant...i tried to hide my tears today..i cant..i just burst into tears..everything is weird..i dont want you to leave me..i need you terribly..really..i know i didnt treasure you in the past..i am stupid not to treasure you in the past..but i want to treasure you now..can you just do the same treasure me..and dont leave me if sat your decision is to leave me.hope you dont have the thinking of leaving me.

i seriously love you.
i want to spent my life
with you.
can you dont decide that
leaving me is the choice.
i dont want..i also dont wish
you to leave me.

2009-02-21T15:11:00.002+08:00

1 week 7 days its very short..1 day 24 hours..it seems like there are many hours for you to spent but it is not so..24 hours are pretty short..there nth much you can do..but however..i spend most of my 1 day 24 hours sleeping.studying.watching tv if i have the mood.if dont have the mood i will just spend my time aimlessly..but however..this week.2 days alreadx..i spend my precious time getting sad over nothing big..but i just cant stand the way..my heart is fragile..unable to withstand the hurt..tears that dropped make me tired..all i wish now is i sleep..dont ever wake up to face this pressure world..its too tiring..i have learn my mistakes..endure it..monday and saturday is not the suitable day maybe..i know my girlfriends is concern about me..but i cant control my emotion.it sux alright..how to solve it?can left it unsolve?too tired already..i love you too deeply that why..maybe like what others people like to say..first 2 months..you will recieve the love he/she gave..next 2 months..slowly it will be lesser..next few months onwards..maybe you cant even able to recieve it..dont get things too granted..its meaningless..i have take everything for granted..even his love..i am too stupid..seriously..but its useless to say all this now..i had addicted to his love..his care..and even him..will it like the first 2 months forever..dont feel a single sadness..dont have any tears drop..hopefully..

2009-02-20T20:51:00.002+08:00

its going to a week since i last post.haha..many things happen in a week...happy thing..weird feeling thing..and even feel stressed up..feling more stressed up weeks after weeks..got our verification letter for the subjects for o level and the amount of payments...exam for mt start at june..very fast gonna arrived..soon all the major paper will arrive as well..feel so tense up la..somemore most of the chapter although my tuition had cover it..but i dont think i can cope in o level standard..cause of the english lo...i feel like breaking down la.why will so stressed up de??but luckily got boy pei me go thru this year..if not i definitely now alreadx gone crazy dont need to wait any longer..boy now having meeting..waiting for his meeting over to sms me..currently my head is like bursting..feel my head so heavy..haix..okay la..shall stop here..gonna study for a math test tml..while watching tv and wait for boy's meeting finish..

ILOVEYOU!!
10 more days..
7months (:
its a long way.
but there are
more to go..
hopefully everything
will be alright.

2009-02-14T18:24:00.002+08:00

yoyoyo..its 14 feb and it is VALENTINE'S DAY!!!!
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO ALL MY GIRLFRIENDS!!!
and not forget MY BELOVED BOYFRIEND!!
bought all my girlfriends and guys classmate lollipop...wahaha..
and also..all different love letter for GIRLFRIENDS....wahaha..
5/1 a math student really enjoy ourselves..our first valentine's day together..
somemore with our MISS LEOW!!
can see she is touch by our love for her..haha :D
bought boyfriend something also..he must use it..haha..
but hope he like lo..find for very long..haha..finally..
just back from causeway..meet jesslyn go find boyfriend..haha..
spend 2 hours with with him and simon,jonathan,grasshopper,warren,yvonne,jia ming and one sir..then my mummy come le..so go meet her le lo..
that my valentine's day..haha..okay la..shall stop here..bye..
hope my GIRLFRIENDS enjoy their own VALENTINE'S DAY happily..espically JUE QI..dont quarrel le..haha..cause..its V day.

2009-02-07T19:44:00.002+08:00

her i am posting with a clear mind..haha..today is a day that i super dont like..many things happen..i cry make me feel much better..thanks qi and sylvia..they try to cheer me up..thanks alot..boy..sorry that i make you feel sad cause you see me sad like that..i should not be like that..so sorry..next time i wont like that le..really..but i know you try very hard to make me not sad..but after that see you i more sad..want cry..but dont dare to cry infront of you..get back e and a math test paper le..e math still not bad..but a math is horrible..haha..but will work hard..okay la..shall stop here..got nth to post le..7 more days to V day..haha..hope that day will be a better sat then today.. :D

iloveyou.
imissyou.
alotalotalot.
seriously..
what about you.

2009-02-02T17:20:00.002+08:00

actually i dont know what to post..but i am really really very bored..nth to do..cause my mind just now in the right mood to study..to do a single thing..can just lie down do nth..watch tv..even very funny i also can smile out or laugh out..i am just not myself la.i dont like this feeling..really dont like..everything is not right for me..angry with myself for having such a mind set..feel like shouting..but cant do it.feel so horrible..only crying is the only solution..but i didnt..haix..okay la.i stop here le..going out to fetch my sister..

tmr is arriving..
should i look forward to it?
6 months is a long way.
feel happy..
but cant able to meet.
that what i dont know
whether to look forward to it.

2009-01-31T20:31:00.002+08:00

very long nvr post..boy said de..haha.this year chinese new year not that fun.haha..cause second day new yr alreadx not with my parents they all..all went to malaysia..haha..but what to do..is i chose not to go..haha..will miss boy definitely..also if i go then wed got tuition got lesson also will miss..haha..today is vishnu's birthday..tml is jue qi's (papa) the birthday..haha..btw..also went back everyweek for training..is like want my life..very boring..i only close to some of juniors..then luckily thur gatsper went..if not i will bored to death..haha..remedial lesson for a math is out..is on tue straight away after a math lesson..mdm foon told me maybe wed is dnt remedial..is like almost everyday..miss leow put e math remedial on sat..but not yet start..now she having remedial lesson with 5/2 first..then my class..haha..okay la..dont post le..nth to post..haha

boy.
i love you..
i miss you..
3 more days..

iloveyou.
youloveme.
wearehappyfamily.
withagreatbighugandakissfrommetoyou.
wontyousayyoulovemetoo..

2009-01-15T19:38:00.002+08:00

okay..here to post..if not boy say i nvr post since i got on com.haha..now he currently playing game.but awhile more my brother want to use com le..today all dnt student went to design studio to let the teacher talk about the theme..their opinion...till now still got no idea come into my mind..so useless me right..dont need to say i also know..haha..intend to get help from tze yang for dnt..really cant make it la..aiming for A2 min lo..cut off point must less than 16 for 5 subjects..ughhhhh...brain bursting..haha..tml school end around 1 plus.and i got tuition at 3.30..so me and mei going to have lunch first then go for tuition..tml boy working..and going checkpoint to buy stuff..just hope he will take care can le..also must let him know that i will wait for him to reach home then will go sleep..haha..okay la..shall stop here..letting my brother use com le.

boy.
no matter what i wont leave you de
seriously.
just stop making me jealous.
i cant endure it.
all i want is you by my side.
love me wholehearted.
make me feel your love.
cause I LOVE YOU.

2009-01-13T17:27:00.002+08:00

i know i very long never post..but hardly a day got no homework to do lo..so hardly can post..but today before i start doing my homework..i post first ba..around 7 then i go start doing my homework and stuff..everydays life is the same..wake up go school.come back from school..homework..then sleep..normal routine..haha..i didnt even watch finish a full ep of a show lo..miss watching tv..this year is the last lap already..must do to the max..cant afford to fail..crucial year for both me and boy..haha..only he and i understand..haha..last yr o level result out yesterday..some happy some sad la..sorry to hear my own platoon mates going to ITE..but happy for tze yang..he able to enter to the poly with his score..my dnt result for o level also got to get his help..who ask him to be my friend and who score an A1 for his dnt..haha..okay la..shall stop here..want to watch tv for awhile..before i go bath..

boy..
for what i think,
you are very important to her.
althought i dont know why
and what you all are
quarreling about.
she is willing to post such a
small post just for you..
no girls will do that..
that what i am thinking..
i might be wrong..
i just cant stop being jealous
over her..
maybe she is being sent by god
to test our love..but i trust you.
i love you.but she just cant stop
making jealous..
just like how you are jealous
over him for being able to see me
when we combined class.

2009-01-02T19:53:00.002+08:00

today is the first day of school..and also a miserable day in school.stay all the way to 5 plus in school la..something happen which i hate to mention it..but what i think i did is correct..but to teacher its wrong..as all thanks to a teacher i hated most say the whole wrong happening to another teacher..hate it..forget it..its the past..maybe what my junior saw is the way what it should be..its good enough..it all happening so fast..okay..today the councillor wanted to have dinner at seoul garden..then many ppl say its too ex..so they dont want..then later they change to pizza hut..in the end 20+ say wanna go..but dont know isit true that got 20+ turn up..haha..council mentor got a new shirt..which i think the old one is nicer..and it cost freaking ex lo..how i wish my case its like naz..haha..i pity edward and of course myself..he didnt even know a thing about the shirt until today morning..then me is..isaac liu just call to ask what size i am wearing..until naz told me they buying shirt..wth la..forget it..its PAID..this weekend goona have 3 hours tuition each day..so sian..and boy is working..sort of angry ba..working and got bb..somemore is someone who needs lots of sleep..you like that dont feel tired or what.i feel very xin tong you know..xin tong until tears drop la..very tong you know..haix..forget it..there nth i can do to it..how i hope tml arrived..but now i dont want..tml is our 5th month..but he gonna have bb and work at night..which is like late at night then end..so i dont want tml to arrive..okay la.shall stop here..no matter how xin tong i am i will just bear with it lo..maybe the job to you is important ba..just put ur heart in it and do well ba..

2009-01-01T10:48:00.002+08:00

here to post again..i am bored and thinking lots of stuff..so here to blog lo..as what i wrote in my nick..who is more important?i am thinking..just wish to think for today..after today i dont wish to think of any such stuff..and of course sorry for being so unreasonable to you..okay..i shouldnt say all this now ba..just let me think by myself ba..
yesterday night..wanted to call my brother wake up at 2 plus..he working..since i cant get to sleep for some reason..but around 2 i fall asleep..i dont like my eyes lo..cause of some reason..my eyes is too tired..so slept..hopefully my brother able to wake up by himself..cause i slept and unable to wake him..
wondering how today will be like..working or just staying at home..maybe i will just try to finish all the homework teacher gave..haha..okay la..shall stop here..
this year resolution is that..want to score well for o level..and of course want to love my boy wholehearted (:

2008-12-31T19:07:00.002+08:00

i am so so so bored..boy is out with friends to countdown..and i am here staying at home with my family...yesterday went to east coast..lots of thing happen..had lots of chat..espically with my girlfriends..and and..i went there like train my walking like that..keep walking here and there..wait for calvin here pass him present then we went back..reach home 12 plus..so tired..and today i went back to work also..so tired lo..later waiting for boy to go home then i then can ease my mind and sleep..haha..1 year had past to fast..lots of thing happened which is unexpected..but that all in the past..what i should do is look forward to those days,months and years with my boy..okay..shall stop here..it will be 2009 in a few hours time..friday schooling starts..wohooo...haha..

3 more days to go..
and its 5th month..
want to be with you forever.
really..seriously..
boy..
iloveyoulots..
imissyoulotstoo..

last but not least.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CALVIN LEE!!!

2008-12-26T20:09:00.002+08:00

dont know whether to post on weekends not..he is going to camp again tml..but its in school..so okay la..luckily its 2 days 1 night..if more than that i will go mad..haha..today he wen to work..he felt tired..haix..when he sms me after he work.i abit sad about something..but its okay la..then now he is outside..tuesday going to raja's bbq thingy..gonna buy somthing for calvin..its his birthday the next day..so buy something for him lo..haha..the timing for the bbq is 9pm..so after my tuition go there lo..haha..kei kei also going..so waiting for qi and yan to say whether they going not..like what maine said..some not going to be in sec 5 with us..so maybe this is the last gathering as a class ba..okay la..shall stop here..want to go watch tv..bye.
boy.
no matter what..
we promise wont leave each other..
okay..
as i really love you..

2008-12-24T13:33:00.002+08:00

so long nvr post le..haha..today my house at night will have gift exchange with my relative..today boy tell me he will be having camp..haix..i confirm will be sian till death de lo..haix..nvm..endure for 2 days ba..anyway this 2 days i also got tuition..sat evening going out with my mummy..haha..going to do something that i had nvr done it before..haha..yesterday just met boy..so sorry for whatever happen..and and and i missing my boyfriend now...haix..but must wait until next tuesday then able to meet him..haix..next fri start school le..and there will be new principal..oh ya..yesterday i saw miss leow..she is back..haha..okay la..i another day then post ba..
i miss my boyfriend so much..
i love my boyfriend so much..
really...
i wont want to leave you..

2008-12-18T20:01:00.002+08:00

back to posting..today my friends collected their n level result..some sad some very happy..congrats to those who got top..happy for you all also..haha..you all nervous i also nervous with you all..haha..you all have clear one stage..next is next yr's o level..so work hard together lo..haha..currently watching x family..waiting for it to load so come and post abit..if not someone say i nvr post..haha..okay la..shall stop here..want to continue watching my show..bye..
boy.
you are important to me.
cant leave me okay.

2008-12-17T20:45:00.002+08:00

i seriously dont know what to post.haha..yesterday went to watch movie with dar and some bb boys and yvonne before going to tuition..tml maybe going back to school as my classmate getting their n level result..if kei kei they all nvr go then i think i not going le ba..if not only puvan going back then will be very sian..this 2 days were seriously very tired in the afternoon but very energetic at night..dont know why lo..was on the phone with papa the first night..hope she dont think too much le la..no matter what must think carefully before making any decision..dont regret after making it..then yesterday was on the phone with dar..haha..happy to hear his voice lo..oh ya..my cousin gave birth to a baby girl today..but didnt follow my parent to go see the baby at hospital..haha..okay la..shall stop here..post again another time..
boy.
iloveyou
imissyou.
seriously..
what
about
you?

2008-12-11T10:09:00.002+08:00

so long didnt post as i dont know what to post..only yesterday went back to work..the rest of the day i was at home doing nth..only sat after my tuition meet dar and tue before my tuition..
alot of thing happened in my house..this month..haix..first is i sick..second my didi..now this week only my parents quarrel..haix..its been days they last talk..didnt really like this type of feeling..feel pressure when i am at home..haix..but i had learn to let go of my parents issue..there nth i can do much also..just let everyday pass and slowly they will talk ba..okay la..shall stop here..bye..

dar..
iloveyou,
imissyou,
you?

2008-12-06T18:13:00.002+08:00

sick going to okay le..today finally step out of the house for so long..haha..went to tuition..had a hard time walking to the tuition center..then finally i reach there la..after tuition meet dar..he went to have his lunch..then slack awhile go home..so long nvr meet him..miss him..so today see him very happy..tml got tuition somemore..but yi juan not going..she got marathon..jia you lo..so only left me alone for tuition..new teacher teach somemore..asking my mummy to fetch me there and back from tuition..cause i meeting my friend at 1.30 to go mdm foon's party..my tuition end only at 12..worse thing is gonna face a new teacher for 3 hours..so long la..somemore is both science..haix..nvm..endure ba..okay..shall stop here..going down to vista for dinner..my family all went malaysia..so left only my maid and me..so go down to have dinner.haha..bye...
boy..
iloveyou,
imissyou,
so much..

2008-12-03T11:38:00.002+08:00

so long nvr post and boy keep asking me to post..haha..this one week of not posting alot of thing happened..wed afternoon when to meet boy then went in to malaysia with my family..thur and fri went to work as usual..sat went to bugis with sock yan,sock yan's sister and keikei..after that i meet jue qi and came back woodland together..at night went to celebrate my father's birthday..sun afternoon went to wedding buffet of one of my relative..at night already start to cough..monday already sick having fever..what i hate most is having rashes..haix..so itchy la..dont like..anyway..today is me and boy 4 months together le..happy..haha..okay la..shall stop here..will post whenever i can..haha..

2008-11-25T22:04:00.003+08:00

yesterday something wrong with my internet that why i unable to post..even online also cant..so all the way i was outside watching television with my family..but my parents was not around..today went to work as usual..then after that reach home bathe went out again..went to turf club and meet my cousin all..as only today there are open for kids..so went just reach home..went there my sister bought a elmo and i bought a cookie monster..haha..okay la..shall post here..i wanna watch television..Bye..
iLOVEandMISSmyBOYFRIEND D:

2008-11-23T10:00:00.002+08:00

let me post about yesterday ba..cause i seriously dont have the mood to post about friday..yesterday morning went to swimming with my mummy.brother and sister..after that reach home.awhile later went to meet xiu hui and cherilyn le..we went to the music monster festival..overall still not bad..somemore wang zi so handsome and cute..wahaha..after the whole thing end..we went to take mrt..can say we are lucky that we took the last train to woodlands..when reach causeway..we walk home lo..when i was walking alone after reaching cherilyn and xiu hui nearby.they went off le..so i walk alone lo.what on my mind i really hope at that moment it will come true la..but its impossible..i wont dare to dream of miracle anymore..i wont wish for something with high expectation..as dissapointment is higher..okay la..i dont want to post le.
everything i hope,
everything i wish,
it is impossible.

2008-11-20T09:19:00.003+08:00

yesterday didnt post as i was not at home most of the time..wahaha..went to work in the morning until 4 plus like that..reach home..i was watching hot shot..my mummy came home..say wanna go causeway..so okay lo..go with her..meet my cousin over there..we bought lots of stuff la..cause john little got sales..somemore my cousin got card member..came home.its alreadx 9 like that..i need to off com le so nvr post lo..haha..later going to bugis with sock yan and kei kei..yupx..then meet my mummy at bukit botak the west mall..maybe take mrt back to woodland or meet my father after that to fetch us back..haha..okay la..shall stop here..searching for the ep of hot shot i wanna watch..haha..
dar..
iLOVEyou.
iMISSyou.
whataboutyou?

2008-11-18T19:40:00.002+08:00

just came back from my father factory..online..but boy didnt online..haix..tml at first want to go bugis with sock yan n kei kei..but my dad say tml i rush finish his work for him then thur n fri i dont need to go down until next week..so okay lo..no choice..had to change day..change to thur..but sock yan haven reply my sms..kei kei have to confirm with mi again..haha..fri i definitely will go meet boy..if nvr..dont know when then can meet le..haha..okay la..i dont want to post le..nth to post also.
boy.
iLOVEyou.
iMISSyou.
its for sure.

2008-11-17T17:43:00.002+08:00

yesterday didnt get to post..afternoon i went to my dad factory to work..cant imaging sunday i have to work also..evening came back..ate finish all the way was watching hot shot..when i want to post..my brother came in say he wanna sleep le..so no choice..cant post..today morning wake up..went to work until now just came back..was so tired..somemore get cut..dont feel the pain but got blood..so disgusting..tml also going to work..only wednesday going to get my aunt birthday present..i didnt get any present for any aunt before..just cause she always gave mi money..so its right to give her a present right..haha..but i wish to see dar..very long nvr see him le..haix..tml dar having exam..hope he can do well..cant fail..must pass..jia you hor..no matter what must do your very best..okay la..want to watch hot shot le..haha..
boy boy..
iLOVEyou.
iMISSyou.
iwishtoseeyou.
cause,
IMISSYOUALOT.

2008-11-15T13:45:00.002+08:00

i shall post now before i got no more time to post today.since morning..i am stuck in the kitchen..unbelievable right!!help my mummy prepare tonight buffet stuff..then cook lunch for them..it has being 1 year plus i last cook for my family..wahaha..then help them to mop the floor all..so tiring..dar now in chr having bb..he must be more tiring then mi ba...but what to do..he cant dont go for bb what..tonight..my relative all coming..cause my brother celebrating his 21st birthday tonight..last night didnt celebrate lo..my house gonna be very noisy again..haha..how i wish when its mine turn to celebrate..i definitely will call my friends..but not forgetting..my beloved dar as well..haha..but it will be 2 years later..haha..next year wont be celebrating ba..o level..no time to think how to celebrate..wahaha..okay..shall stop here..Bye..
boy..
iLOVEyou.
iMISSyou.

whatever you do,
i will be very happy.
when i get hyper,
i cant sleep.
but i dont mind,
cause you are the
one who make me
HAPPY.

2008-11-14T17:56:00.002+08:00

i am here to post again..haha...today went to marsiling to get some sort of clothing for mdm foon's christmas party..after that..i took mrt back to causeway and meet shafiyah at the 901 lane there to go back to school..cause got the sembCorp schoolbag thingy..so at first when it was so boring la..but after which is still better..all the way daniel chow and jia ming and i was disturbing each other la..atleast i make something out of entertainment to keep myself from gettng bored easily..somemore when usher cant use the phone what.so now only can entertain myself and not from the phone...haha..after the whole event..we still need to stack up the chair..some of it still need to carry it to the prayer hub from the hall..i pity the guys..espically most are from the BB..they are having their gym..yet still come and help to carry..after that some of it is at the AVA room de..so we still need to carry..again..most is jia ming and daniel all doing the work..after the whole thing..they are very wet...as if they just drop inside the swimming pool with the blouse..its really wet la..haha..and here i am posting..okay..anyway..today is my big brother's birthday..so
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BENJAMIN CHIN..
Bye..
boy..
iLOVEandMISSmyBOYFRIEND D:

2008-11-13T20:57:00.002+08:00

sorry for not posting yesterday..due to the heavy rain i didnt on the com.yesterday went to town with winona..and and lizhen..4 yrs nvr meet lizhen already..and lots of changes can be seen between us..hahawe talk lesser then last time..but still got talk la..imaging 4 yrs nvr meet..suddenly meet is very weird de lo..if next yr all of them going back to pri school i definitely will go..haha..3 yrs nvr go back le..cause its so far okay..haha..scare so many yrs nvr go back when next yr go back will get lost..it is true that i got NO sense of direction.wahaha..today went to work..when going back..my parent and mi went to boon lay there..i bought my new school shoes just for tml..then my mom abandon mi..i was walking at the front..she at the back..see something stop..nvr tell mi..i was like one idiot walking alone..the worst is..i call her..i say"mummy" i turned around she not at the back..she was looking at her shoes..she saw mi looking around she laugh..i told my daddy after he arrived..he laugh also..really look like an idiot la..then she bought buffet stuff just for my brother birthday..she spend $141 on it..after buying..we went to cwp..order my brother's birthday cake..went to cold storage as well..oh ya..when we entering the car park..my cousin car was just at the back..she call my mummy hp..say"you all at cwp ar? i am just at your back"..also walked together with her lo..haha..first time go cwp with cousin..wahaha.. XD okay la..gonna stop here..wanna go watch tv le..
boy..
i love and miss you lotsss... XD

2008-11-11T20:56:00.002+08:00

today i didnt work again..wahaha..tml also not going to work..tml going to town with winona..very long nvr go shopping with her..tml getting school shoe..cause friday need to go back school..who ask my maid..so fast throw away school shoe..also getting my brother a present..he going to be 21 yrs old..and it means..FREEDOM for him..i still got so many pathetic years la...today went to school with jueqi..and i know my english score..its so badly done la..argh..after that wait for dar to come..after that jue qi went off already..so dar went to eat his ice cream..haha..oh ya..i saw girlfriends and daddy today..girlfriends-maine and haidah...daddy-keikei..haha..then dar and mi was slacking all the way till i going home..dar also pei me take bus with mi..at first want to walk de..but dar in camp INJURED himself..so he say dont want walk..later pain..then i will xin tong..so okay lor..agree to take bus lor..haha..okay..gonna stop here..shall update EVERYDAY...all cause of dar..haha..bye..
i LOVE and MISS my BOYFRIEND!
since o3o8o8.

2008-11-10T11:04:00.002+08:00

i have went thru the most boring life of mine..my beloved dar was back from camp last night..finally..yesterday afternoon i was so so so boring that i took a afternoon nap..i slept at 1 plus till 4.33 after recieving dar sms..he told mi that he fall down..upon after reading that..i jump out of my bed..sms him all..xin tong to heard he fall..somemore got cut..on both hand and leg..haix..i cried la..so xin tong eh..but its alrights..cant predict de what..at night went to my aunt house for dinner..when going home..dar sms mi..say he going home..i am so happy..haha..sms with him till 11.30 like that..i slept around 12 plus..cant get to sleep..as afternoon i slept..this morning my mummy didnt wake mi up..dont know why..but my that irritating brother wake mi up..i went to wash up..and you know what..my parents already went to work..i was like complaining la..want mi go work for my daddy and yet they went off already..make mi wake up..argh...but nvm..was chatting with dar in msn just now..okay..stop here..wanna follow my maid go fetch my siblings..haha..miracle neh..too bored at home la..Bye..
i LOVE and MISS my BOYFRIEND so much..

2008-11-08T15:42:00.002+08:00

boy boy went to camp yesterday..and i miss him alot alot..promise him that i wont be sad de..so i wont..must look forward to the day he come back..yesterday he slept very late.around 3 plus..xin tong to hear him slept so late..and i nvr acc him..he able to sms but i was already aslept..around 2 plus woke up.sms him..but i am very dumb la..i type my sms..then i nvr sent..so its like i thought he is busy or what to reply..morning then i found out i nvr sent..argh..tonite i wont be that stupid le..haha..tonight..my didi gonna have graduation concert..and i am left at home alone..my maid went for off day..so i will be alone at home..then its like so dark..omg..i wont scare de la..haha..okay la..will stop here la..gonna watch tv to waste my time..haha..
dar..hurry up come back..i miss you so much..
<3 o3o8o8!
ily.
imy.
its for forever.
i promise.

2008-11-06T19:50:00.003+08:00

back to posting..didnt go work today..my mummy all also nvr work..haha..as there is sort of prayer in my house..i am like so miss boy okay..but he say..someone miss more than someone miss someone..haha..i am so sian okay..this few days is like work work work la..hate it..still got like 1 month 3 weeks..how am i gonna survive man..haix..nvm..for money sake okay..tml boy going camp le..he must really take care..i will miss him lots de..yesterday on the phone with him..he mention abt joining bb..i dont know la..i dont want cause its weird..i want is cause atleast can learn something at there..as well as can see him..but what should i do?even if i want..i dont think my mummy allow ma..its on weekend somemore..and i should focus on studies more than anything else ba..haix..all this can wait ba..forget it..wait for times to come ba..haha.okay..shall stop here..gonna watch tv..
boy..
ily.
imy.
take care okay?
<3 o3o8o8!!
: o

2008-11-05T19:49:00.002+08:00

effffff....i am damn angry with myself now..maybe god is playing a joke on me ba..why must this 2 thing happened in 1 day.arghhhhhhhh...i am damn moody after seeing what he sms mi..now..i am freaking angry with what she say..isit cause what i predicting is true..than she taking away what i have now??i hate it..really hate it so so so much..now i can felt how someone felt last time..i think what i say now only mi and dar understand ba..sorry that i started this post sounded angry..but no choice..that what i am suffering inside my freaking heart..

2008-11-03T20:50:00.002+08:00

today i didnt go to work for my daddy..but tml have to help him..miss my dar already..its like only 2 days didnt saw him..today dar didnt went to school..so the whole day was chatting with him in msn..but he did call mi for awhile..very happy..can hear his voice..the afternoon dar trying to find things to do as he is very sian..i also very sian..but i today guai okay..stay at home.watch in love with a rich girl while doing my homework..first time end of yr holiday got homework lor..tml my preciious dar morning going to school..and afternoon going to chr for meeting..he coming down to woodland but i cant make it to meet him after his meeting..i am working..haix..i miss him so much okayy...but not to forget.most importantly is..today finally is our 3rd month together..i am very happy okay..i nvr had a r/s that last this long after having a r/s with my first stead for 7 months lor..haha..i believe dar also very happy ba.. :D today also sock yan's(mama) birthday.. so
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!
hope you like the present we gave it to you..
the rest i posting is for my dar.
today our 3rd month and i hope there are more months and years we will be spending together..cause i seriously love you so much..so
HAPPY 3RD MONTH ANNI.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.

2008-11-02T18:39:00.002+08:00

back from ncc camp today.camp start on friday afternoon..there are 4 clt.naz and mi and 29 pathetic cadets and 11 specialist..first day of camp i only attend the night event..i reach school and they startin AAR alreadx.so i just stay there listen to what the clt observe for the day..that night..we kinda late go sleep..i did some homework in the canteen..around 3 went up to bunk.but cant sleep.ma'am keep making us laugh non-stop..we went outside the bunk the bench..sat until fall asleep..around 4 plus then go back inside bunk to sleep..morning 6.30 wake up again..as they going to fall in and mi and naz making milo for their breakfast..we did it okayy..better than what the first day night supper milo.haha..we slack the whole day of second day..but i was ask to help them wrap the prize.wash all the food for bbq that night..i was like a maid la..wash the whole afternoon..wash finish..we went down to plaza to start the fire..my hand is black la..all thanks to the charcol..later also help them to bbq..but what i bbq is cant make it de..the food is either overcook or not cook..haha..but i only start to bbq at the very last part.which is meant for clt.naz and mi.haha.but that particular night..during AAR something stupid happened..dont wish to mention why anymore..its over..whatever happen next we wont know.so just wait for mdm heriyani to call either mi or naz to further the matter..we slept around 3 that night..5.30 have to wake up le..i was like damn tired la..want to sleep.the clt are not around at 8 plus. due to the matter happen that night..mi n naz left around 9 and clt ask us to join them at vista for awhile.as they are having their breakfast..around 10 i reach home le.this camp can say i wont miss the time la..although have fun..but what happen during the second day AAR spoil the whole mood and camp..came back home i sleep and wake up at 12 bathe and went to my cousin house.my niece full month..she is cute la.i carried her also..haha..nice to carried her la..today also my mummy birthday..so
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MUMMY!
okayy..will stop here le..wanna say that fri and sat able to meet dar i very happy..i not sure when then able to meet as i working for my daddy..but nvm..i will try to find time de..hope tml hurry up arrive..
<3 o3o8o8.
1 more day..
happy happy lor.
ily.
imy.

2008-10-30T19:50:00.002+08:00

back from sentose just not long ago..went to play volleyball with sock yan,kei kei,cherilyn,yan ling and xui hui.but onli 5 of us play..xui hui nvr join in playing.play long le abit sian..but just only 12 plus..so go sea shore awhile..then come back play awhile.play until 2 plus then we go bath le..go vivo awhile..went to the pet shop..omg la..got two of the dog is like very very cute la..haha..but scared of dog.haha..after seeing then go take mrt come back woodland eat lunch/dinner..cox the timing is like late le..but we haven eat lunch..so our only meal lor..but before going to eat.went to kiddy palace to buy sock yan's birthday present..hope she like the eeyor..sorry to give it to you early as i will be working.somemore got camp..so this 3 days also hard to meet.so buy le give you straight away.haha..dont worry.i will be the first to wish you happy birthday de..haha..
my face is red..die..dar dont know what will do with my face..its like really seriously i myself cant see that my face is red until just only..maybe is cause i am dark ba..the rest face red can easily being seen de neh..argh..okay la..my hand pain..dont wanna type le..post again another time..Bye..
<3 o3o8o8!
4 more days.
3months.
: o
dar.
ily.
imy.

2008-10-28T11:04:00.003+08:00

hey..back from malaysia..seriously the trip is very very bad..the weather is cold there and i will be bored to death if stay there any longer.no television programme to watch as all is in malay and tamil.no handphone to use as no autoroaming.its like go there wont get any information in singapore..cant get to know what dar is doing exactly.dunno what his programme is like after doing what..what i know is what he had told me before i leave.but what happened after i left.i know nth alreadx..okayy.say all this after i had post abt the trip..left singpore on friday night around 10 plus..we only reach fraser hill at 10 plus..we also have to wait for the gate timing which is 9 am...from the foot of the hill to the top the route is turning non-stop..when going up.i sat with my aunt at my mother's friends car..i almost puke and i am like half fainted..feel so horrible until my tears just flow out not knowing it.cant breadth properly also..i am like so lousy la..easily get car sick whenever the route is not straight.when reach up there..we went to see other apartment before going to what we had booked..i sort of stay where am i not moving.dont have the energy to moved.feel so weak la.finally reach where we stay..i sudden have the urge of going back at that very moment..reach our place.my aunt cook some lunch.ate it.rest awhile and off i am to sleep at around 1 plus..woke up around 6 plus..they alreadx like started cooking dinner alreadx..so sat at sofa..try to tune some show so can watch.in the end..result..no show to watch..stone at the sofa holding my pooh looking at it..back to my room..thinking of dar my tears rolled down again..mummy call out for me to help her in the kitchen..so went to help her..ate dinner..slack awhile and again..its only 9 plus i alreadx slacking on the bed..wanting to sleep but cant sleep..so slack until 1 plus then i fall asleep..ard 5.30 wake my maid up.she cant get up..we both wake up around 7.30..then its alreadx sunday..still got freaking one more day to spent at the hill..alreadx felt sick..fever,flu and cough..daddy tried to find places for us to visit..we went to the waterfall..climb down the forest to see waterfall..it was nice..took some photo with my family..but haven upload to computer..some with my aunt.inside her camera..the river water also very cold..went down to see its nice..climbing back up its sucks..but i manage to do so with my illness in my body.but the time went up its lunch time..so went to have lunch at a so called resturant to them..didnt ate much due to NO appetitie.its started to rain so cant go discover somemore places..back to apartment we staying..slack awhile but the rain just cant stop..so again..sleeping time for me lor..i didnt slept to long this time round..slept for 2 hours..lots of insects bites all over my hand..at first wanna ate steamboat that night as the weather is very cold..but daddy went to check they dont have steamboat that night..so cook all the leftover vege that we bought at the minimart..ate dinner..slack again..then i go sleep alreadx..slept around 12 that night..monday morning set off at 10 to the foot of the hill..its turning route again.this time round.sat my parents car instead..i almost puke but i survive without almost fainted.slept in the car for awhile until lunch..after lunch didnt get back to sleep alreadx.lesten to music..hope hurry reach malaysia custom to sms dar..jam for 1 hour plus..reach home at around 10.15..bathe and watch television..of course smsing dar non-stop..okay..that all abouth the trip..i wont go there again..
kinda happy that i am back from the trip..able to sms with dar and everything alreadx..miss him so much during the trip la..endure it for so many days..finally its over..really finally..haha..also very happy that i able to hear dar voice yesterday night..as he call me..even for that short 16 mins i am contented alreadx.better than nth..okayy..will stop here..Bye..but before publish post..i want to say something.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
AH MEI ,
AU YI JUAN..

2008-10-24T21:45:00.002+08:00

yo..readers..i am off to malaysia le..gonna miss dar alot alot alot..hope the pooh with him able to make him feel i am near him ma..i will bring my pooh with mi to malaysia..wahaha..hope mei like her tweety bird present...okayy..gonna off com to go off le..bye..
<3 dar.
miss you lots..
will sms you
before entering
and when i reach
malaysia custom.
hope you miss me too!

2008-10-24T10:03:00.002+08:00

today going malaysia le.i gonna miss dar alot alot alot..haix..its like so many days la..nvr meet still okayy..but now is nvr meet also cant sms..argh..but nvm..later gonna meet dar..also gonna meet mei..getting her birthday presents..haha..dar tml got training..mei also tml got training..haha..must take care neh..mei today tuition and sunday tuition have to go herself le.sunday dont be late okayy..need morning ppl call you ask kor call you..he will help mi call you de..you two got anything must sms mi..when i reach malaysia custom i able to sms you all back le..okayy..gonna stop here le la.gonna pack my bag..the whole family pack alreadx except mi..haha..i always last min one.
dar..
iloveyou.
muacksss.
imissyou.
ineedyou.
dontleaveme,
promisemecan.
10moredays.

2008-10-22T19:56:00.002+08:00

2 more days..and i confirm gonna miss him so much..haha xD
today meet him together with mei..mei play his psp..wahaha..althought i am kinda sad for some time but everything is okayy..due to i think too much again that causes me to be sad.haha..everything is alright..yupx xD today is our last day of pe..and we get to play volleyball..miss playing volleyball with my friends lor.espically play at beach de..we play 2 hours straight.cause we dont want to go back class for chinese lesson..first hour mr koa wanna combined class with my class.so we play volleyball against 3/10..at first didnt started it well..everyone was not use to it.but slowly all the fun is out alreadx..2nd hour nicer.only our class..we get to really enjoy it la..we try to keep the ball thrown to each other..haha..but something wrong with my eyes at that moment playing.so didnt really can see clearly la.anyway..also got back our result for the practice paper..its was kinda one..didnt really do well also didnt do that bad la.compare to prelim i did better..but not as what i expected..haha..mrs yap also mention abt the trekking thingy..i told her go there my baby pooh lost..and you know what she said.her son saw the pooh alreadx drop down the hill..and..the son say is one of us the pooh..they dont know what our name..forget it..heartpain to heard that my pooh had fallen down the hill..argh..but nvm.alreadx decided to buy one..okayy.stop here..gonna do some of my geo retest..Bye..
<3 o3o8o8
12 more days..
3rd month
:o
dar..
i love you.
i miss you.

2008-10-21T12:21:00.002+08:00

just back from school..whole day mood was bad due to something..get back chemistry paper..althought overall for chemistry i pass,my paper 2 pull down the marks as i fail..whole class only 3 people fail chemistry paper 2..imagine.its is so easy and yet i can fail..worse is got one question.out of 17 people.i am the only one who did it wrong..tonight still got tuition but i think i am already dont have the mood for tuition..3 more days i am going malaysia..so tml i meeting dar and fri meeting mei.getting her a birthday presents.if not by the time i am back from malaysia.i dont have the time to get it for her..back from malaysia at 27 oct midnight and on the 31 oct i will goin to ncc camp..but will be back on 2 nov.i will be coming back at 7 plus in the morning..as that day i need to attend my niece full month and of course.celebrate my mummy birthday..okayy..i gonna stop here le.dont have the mood to type as well..

will everything be okayy??really feel myself like one idiot..keep making someone who i really love be angry or sad..can all this come to a stop..stop myself from having such attitude??i promise i will listen to you..i wont be like last night..disobey you..i really regret making you sad or angry..

2008-10-20T13:53:00.002+08:00

an i so gullible to all of you..argh..alwaes kena bluff by tze yang..then todae kena bluff by NIXON TAY ZHONG HAN.what bluff me you retained..such thing also wanna bluff.argh..today nvr take back a single paper..mrs yap not in school.mdm yati came to relief our class.its like omg la.somemore when last lesson mdm kan lesson.she go thru the paper but onli first 2 question.she mention she rmb my paper.sae i didnt do well for the question 1.if question 1 didnt do well confirm rest of my question die le la.haix..nvm..math and science more important.haha.currently waiting for dar to go home and online.he finish school only at 2 pm.so late lor.haha..wed dar coming down to chr..haha..me and mei meeting him after he done with his thing.haha..fri going malaysia le.hope hurry go hurry come back..but its like 3 daes la.so freaking long.cant sms.haix.haix..okay la.gonna stop here..wanna go take a shower before starting to do my dnt.tml submission date.
<3 o3o8o8
14 more days..
ily.
imy.

2008-10-18T16:48:00.002+08:00

today didnt went to tuition.went to temple first with my family.after that went to toa payoh to find my pooh.why all kiddy palace is the same.all not nice de.in the end didnt buy any..so now only can start searching everywhere for nice pooh.today dar got bb training.hope he is not tired.cox last night kinda late sleep ma.haha..yesterdae met him..its like 11 days nvr meet finally met.haha.very happy.now already start to miss him lor.but can endure de.okay la.stop here.Bye.
dar.
ily.
imy.
you are my precious dar okay.
dont ever leave mi alone.
i only want you nobody else.
<3 o3o8o8.
16 more days.
3 months.
:O

2008-10-16T18:11:00.002+08:00

i was being tagged by WENDY!!

RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
RULE #2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game by sending it to other people.

1. Do you have secrets?
have.but mostly my so called " family " will know.

2. Would you fall in love with a boy younger than you?
nope..cox i only love the guy i love currently.

3. Do you enjoy going to sch?Yes

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
buy lots of pooh and of course save the rest.

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
nope.all my best friend is girl.and i am already attached.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Loved by someone.

7. List out your 15 favourite songs:
i'll remember you.
never let you go.
ku chai.
ni zou tian qiao wo zou di xia dao.
this is me.
xiang tai duo.hei tang xiu.
ban qing ge.
bo le.
baby' i am so sorry.
cai hong.
wait for you.
let me die.
only love.
that why.
sarang ah nae ge oh gi man hae.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
give up and of course wish he is happy and wish them happiness

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?yes.pooh bear appearance.

10. What makes you angry?when people does something my back and accuse me.

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
with my family and of course maybe married with the guy i love most.hopefully is my dar.

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
my family.so called " famiy " and of course my beloved dar

13. What is the most important thing in life?
Happiness.studies.

14. What is more important?Family or Career?
Family.

15. What is your favourite colour?
purple.pink and many more.

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
not really all.

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
i will pick the one who loves me more.but i wont love two people simultaneously.

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
should be ba..see how serious the thing is.

19. What do you want to tell the someone you like?
friends - stay happy.
bgr - iloveyou.
20. 5 people I have tagged
i dont wish to tag anyone by the way.

2008-10-16T17:43:00.002+08:00

today went to the sounthern ridge trip.and it is my sad day la.my bag always hang a pooh bear..and you know what..today lost it.heart pain la.to me it place third in my heart neh..very heartpain la.its mi and jue qi that bought the same pooh bear..now i lost it..i will buy a new one..but i noe its hard to buy back the identical one.so if any pooh i go find tml.its look nice to mi i will buy it ba.tml got tuition..also meeting dar..he ask mei along..hopefully she going also ba..okay la.stop here le.no mood to post le.i miss my pooh le.wonder where is it now.at interchange?in the bus?or at vista?haix..okay..Bye

dar.
iloveyou.
imissyou.
<3>

2008-10-15T18:54:00.002+08:00

yesterday is hard day to past..i went to work for my daddy again..its so tiring..somemore is i slept at 4 plus in the morning..luckily my mummy fetch mi to school today morning..if not.i tink walk for so long also wont reach that pathetic school which only have 17 sec 4 students..dunno why i so late sleep.i also not sleepy.maybe what dar say make me too happy le..today went to watch connected with jue qi.keikei.sockyan.finally.but the show is like omgggg la..starting haven 5 mins mi and jue qi alreadx could scared by the sound.car crash is so loud.we both seem to be the only 2 that make the most noise during the moive..but overall is still not bad..tmr gonna trekking with my class le.its a 10km thingy..and i think we will enjoy lor.its like singpore's longest bridge..haha..and and this is what we planned ourselves.set our own de..okayy.will stop here..going down to vista..Bye
imy dar..
ily too..

2008-10-13T21:22:00.002+08:00

second post for the day okay..my first time posting twice in a day.haha..i now atleast know what i want to post..about school thing for today i am lazy to say..cox its something unpleasant la.really..who knows about what happen will also say its something unpleasant for ME.. haha XD
i am so looking forward to get back my result for the practice paper we did last week.i study for it.that why i am so looking forward for the result la.its like i spending my time at tuition there to study it.if i still didnt do well.there must be something wrong with my dumbess brain and the way i memories it lor.anyway its over.just wait lor.no other choice.
tomorrow i cant post or online.as i am working.i am working for my dad as i dont have lesson on tomorrow as it is MARKING DAY. its nice to have holiday.i want to earn money to buy present for those birthday coming espically my parents.but i am lazy to work.i just wish to get enough sleep.thought of if sleep,where the hell the money come from.drop from the sky meh.so no choice.set the mind for working.next year wont get the choice of working except after o level lor.so earn enough this year ba.tomorrow also got tuition.i think by the time i go for tuition i will be like half dead lor.veri tired de.but must get use to it le.holiday also coming le lor.going overseas next friday..i am so seriously not looking forward for it la.i will miss dar alot alot de la.onli will be back on the 27 oct la.its like 3 days.

this part is for my papa.
papa..if you are unwell.please go see a doctor la.if really something happen atleast you get to know it early what..can cure.if you know it late you will regret one.can say is ur health nobody can force you if you really dont want.but listen to nu er can..go see a doctor.if nort mama and daddy and me ur nu er will sad if something happen to you..dun forget there is still ah mei..she also will sad one lor.

this part is for my beloved dar.
for today i dont blame you okay..as long as you tell me what exactly happen can le.i am fine now..i veri easily get over it one.i know i tell you that time you sad.but i think that is better to tell you..i also will feel better and it also make me feel that i am not hiding anything from you.i really really hope that we will last long.as long as it is possible.i once let you slipped off..this time i wont let the same thing happen again.my feeling for you wont fade off.okayy..
anyway.
i had learn to said I LOVE YOU.I MISS YOU.
and i will only say this to a particular guy.
he made me know what is the real meaning of these two words
which is very important to both of us.
DAR.I LOVE YOU SERIOUSLY.
I MISS YOU AS MUCH AS WELL.

2008-10-13T16:21:00.002+08:00

why is i feeling like tat.i feel like posting something..but i dunno wat to post.somemore i dun feel like posting about what happen todae.tis morning de is so malu..then i am veri hyper in class cox veri malu..then todae around 10 plus i become so sian like tat..i noe papa.mama and daddy wanna cheer me up.but i just cant seriously being cheer up.but i noe they did their best..thanks..okayy.i dun sae anything more le.Bye.

2008-10-11T17:02:00.002+08:00

back to posting again.i veri bored so here to post..todae went for a math tuition..the whole class veri quiet without joanne.jacqueline also nvr go.so onli mi,edmund and kelly.luckily the class passes kinda fast..
today morning dar call me to wake up again..but i was too tired to wake up.so i say i want to sleep awhile more.i woke up almost 10 then woke up lor.dar alreadx in chr for meeting le.awhile later recieve mrs yap sms.ask mi to get back to her whenever i am free..so i call her after awhile.she told mi tat tml recee trip is cancelled since there is onli 4 of us going..haha..then i have to sms all the rest 3 of them to let them noe.so tml another day slacking at home.haha..dar now still at chr's gym..he must be very very tired lor.must ask him to rest well le XD
okayy..i will stop here le.post again other day ba..

<3 o3o8o8
ily.
imy.

2008-10-10T13:22:00.002+08:00

tis since a long time i post.this whole week we try out the n level exam paper.feel so tired of studying it all over again after prelim..i dun tink english n combined humantities i will score well lor.i finish the paper veri early.then for a math.i tink even if pass also just pass like that.for paper 2.i got not enough time..finish then teacher say time up.then haven even check lor.haix.anyway it NOT graded.haha.

this week meet dar once only..haha..its good enough.dar tonite got dinner.he will wear until veri handsome de.somemore also will cute.chubby chubby de..wahaha.

dar.
ily.
imy.
<3>

2008-10-01T13:04:00.004+08:00

here to post a short one..today is children day but also its my brother WILBER LOH's BIRHTDAY.he must be very excited to see many relative comeing to celebrate with him..he decorate the whole house with his favourite ballon.yesterday he alreadx started making it.now my house like fairy tale house lor..but anyway..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WILBER LOH JUN JIE
yoyoyo..
2 more daessssss..
cant wait for it to arrive..
as all my ex after with the first
i had not had a relationship
last for 2 monthsssss...
dar..you will be the one okayyyy..

2008-09-30T18:15:00.002+08:00

here to blog for awhile before i go for tuition.since yesterdae my class went to take their n level.my class left 17 people only.its was a nice class but the noise is so different.we had normal lesson since they start their n level.todae we had lesson for both science n math.we did those question is o level standard.can see the difficultis and the difference in normal acad question and express.i believe if we practice more,have determination in studying it well,we 17 of us can do it.yesterdae sock yan is back..miss her so much.she must be veri tired la.hope tml the holidae she can rest well ba.also thanks her a lot.she bought us mirror.and i get to choose.guess wat..i choose BABY POOH de..its veri cute la.wahaha XD thanks alot..stop here.gonna go out le.bye.

3 more daes
2months
:o
ily

2008-09-27T18:59:00.002+08:00

read some unplesant thing.but haix.hack care la.i dont care so much over you anymore le la.give up on you.whatever we say is for you to be back on the right track.but i think the more we advice the more we say.the more you want to go to the wrong track.but no matter what decision you make by choosing which track you better dun regret after you realise it.as its ur choice.if you think i am attracting attention.then what abt you.think over it.i dun wish to sae anything more.

today went to tuition again.this time round joanne is so quiet.we didnt realli have any noise in the class.luckily tml no chemistry.if nort i will go mad.so early.10 plus.today before going to tuition.i at first wanted to meet sylvia.but in the end i didnt meet her.i went to meet dar.he also at cwp.reach sembawang around 2.25 le.walk to tuition center abt 2.35.but mr seow finish his previous lesson late.so when i reach.he just finish his previous class.luckily not late for my own class.after tuition.meet jue qi.she accompany mi go buy presentssss for my didi.overall bought the pressent for $12.haha.hope he like the presentssss..then when i reach home i use com and everything.haha.okay..will stop here..my mummy is back with dinner.wahaha XD

dar.
ily
imy

2008-09-26T19:09:00.002+08:00

today we finally get to know what the thru train can do when they doing their N level.we will also try out the N level paper.then we will do O level type of question on both math n science.so we will build our foundation.yupx.atleast at thru train class we are not in that disadvantage..on the 6th to 10th oct we will be taking all the paper.the most shocking news is.social studies and geography paper on the same days.its like this 2 paper is confirn gurantee fail de la.but no choice.must study n try my best.right.but geography if fail must do until pass.waste my time.but atleast can make mi noe wat i am studying.haha.okay la.stop here abt school.post until so sian.

dar..so sorry tat i make you sad yesterdae.although you say nvm.but i think tat i am like so useless.keep makeing you sad.haix.but i promise.no matter wat i will try nort to make you sad le.okay..3 daes nvr meet dar le.although is onli 3 daes but i miss him a lot le.i think i can endure more.cox the previous time is 10 daes nvr meet.haha.okay la..stop here le.nth to post le.wahaha XD

2008-09-22T20:32:00.002+08:00

today i actually was kind of sad and moody.didnt have the mood to pay attention in class.but i still manage to finish the day of studying.while going back home.dar scare me from the back.i was shock la.really shock.it meant to be a surprise to me.haha.thanks eh dar.i really happy that you come and find me lor.as 10 days never meet le.this 10 days its not easy to go through.but i manage to go through it.wahaha XD but i think next time will have more 10 days to go through. XD okay.stop here le.nth to post le.

dar.i love you.althought i kind of angry that you trick me but i noe its you want to give me a surprise.wahaha XD tml hope you enjoy although i tink i will jealous but is okay la.i noe you will behave urself de.haha.
i love you
030808 <3

2008-09-20T13:02:00.002+08:00

goin out to tuition soon.so i am here to post abit before i off the com.yupx.it had being 8 daes i haven seen him.i miss him a lot a lot.haix.but i tink tis is a test for mi ba.how to endure missing someone so much.i had nvr go thru tis much.as all my ex is in the same school as mi.but you are different.2 yrs after you graduate.i wit you is my first time missing you so much.haix.if one dae you leave mi i also dunno wat eventualli will happen to mi la.haix.okay la.i will stop here.if tonite i am using the com again.i will post again.Bye.

2008-09-18T17:20:00.003+08:00

today was still not bad la.someone that i hate is not in class.but someone else came in the my class asking me about something.making my mood changes a lot.but forget it.jus drew my dnt work.but didnt managed to draw all.as i suddenly dont have the mood to draw anything.tmr goin to causeway with jue qi.sock yan and kei kei to have lunch.we like every week will go have lunch once.oh ya.somemore today in class.we like against calvin.then he say something abt this.anyone who smoke is ur father la.then we dunno what to answer.then i shoot back.saying that i didnt even know who is my father how i noe he got smoke not.he didnt sae anythin more as he found out that my parent divorce when i was very young.so i like didnt know who is my father.he ask jue qi to help him say sorry.he keep on asking i angry or what not.haha.calvin.seriously i not angry.as i already come to the fate that he already left me lor.so no choice angry or what.ya.

i feeling kinda sad now.as dar planning to find a job during his holiday.he also got mention that the timing for the work la.i find it very long hours.i scared later he tired.but i know this is the only way that can make occupied.wont find the day passes like so boring.nvm.all this sadness is nth.as long as he is okay can le.everything will be fine afterall.if you read this dont put it to heart.i just want to mention cox i will feel better after mentioning.

i wont hate you.as i noe in my heart i love you deeply.
nth will come in between us as long as in our heart there is each other.
i will alwaes be with you no matter what.
this time round i will treasure you unlike the past.

2008-09-17T17:52:00.002+08:00

we jus finish our investiture..can sae there is improvement for the investiture..but there is a bad news and a good news la..every event is like tat.there will be good n bad.bad news is someone who i tink she can do well in councillor have left the board..but nobady wat.i will respect ur decision after i heard why you wan to make tis decision..hope you will feel much better after leaving..good news is tat all run well.congrats to all those who gotten their ex-co badge..hope you guys can make councillor board to a higher standard.and also nort forgotten to my best friends who get their mentor badges.tis is the last time we get together as a council board.sec4'08 council board..you guys n gals wont be forgotten.. wahaha XD

yi juan..hope you are feelin better.congrats to you..you can do it okay..trust urself..have more confidence.i will be there for you de okay..

dar..i seriously miss you alot.but this week is like cant meet cox you gonna check-up on fri..hopefully next week hurry up arrive la.so can meet you..haix..but no matter how many times we meet..i will still love you..trust mi..i seriously will love you n miss you!!

2008-09-13T17:16:00.002+08:00

feelin bored so here to post abit.had so much homework to clear.as n level they have nort start their math n a math paper.so teacher gave other school paper to try out.still have tuition homework to finish as well.hopefully can finish it on time.yesterday meet dar and i do my homework.first time i do my homework when i am with him (: yesterday tuition at nite.then outside the tuition center got a sort of quarrelin.then 5 of us inside de class was like curious what hapenin.cox the teacher also outside.got mother outside scolding a guy.somemore there got a gal.we had lots of probability wat isis abt..then we guess until like veri funny.the whole class like cant get serious down n do the worksheet teacher gave.haha.
okay la.i gonna stop here

dar.
i love you.
i miss you.
hope next year wont arrive so fast.
if not i will miss you more than now.

2008-09-10T16:02:00.002+08:00

This week is not really a pleasant week..friend in hospital.went to visit in the end cause myself to sick also.hope he can recover fast and come back to school.somemore his n level is arriving soon again.dar also sick le.hope he can recover faster as well.sorry that i cant take care of you.but i will pray for you that you will recover faster and keep remain you to take medicine.okay.
god.you must help both of them to recover faster.sick is not a nice feeling to overcome.you must give them the strength to overcome it.
okay.that all i want to say for today.free will come and post again.Bye

someone teach me to say " i love you ".
someone teach me to say " i miss you ".
dar.
i love you and i miss you :D

2008-09-04T16:43:00.002+08:00

okayy..currently sock yan,kei kei n jue qi must be enjoyin themselves at sentosa..so sori tat i cant join them tis time wrong..hope you guys enjoy urself..you all must have get sun burn de lor..haha..okayy la..i try to join you all next time..durin nov or dec holidae..okayy..

todae is thur le lor..like holidae gonna end le lor..still got lots of homework haven finish..its like OMG..i tink i gonna burn midnite oil to finish lor..cox seriously i afternoon veri lazy to do..dun have to brain to tink also..haha..sec 4 life is realli veri bad de lor..haix.

tis few daes was spendin my daes wit mei..she veri cute la..cox she veri funny..come my house entertain my bro which i wont entertain de lor..i onli noe how to scold my bro n sis de lor..somemore got once i go scold she scaed i also go scold her..dun worry la..i onli will scold them de la..scold you for wat..you are so much much better than them lor..they are irritatin bugs de lor..

next week dar will be havin exam ba..so must study hard okayy..play lesser to study more jus for next week okayy..after tat you can play alwaes de okayy..must do ur best de okayy..i also lookin forward to the week after next week..haha..cox he will be havin his holidae..i month wit you had pass..i realli hope all the months or even yrs will be wit you de..
ily.

2008-09-03T16:23:00.002+08:00

OMGGGGG..why...so much...sori..sori..i noe ur bill so high cox sms too much..okay..now i control le..cannot cause you to get scolded cox of the bill..omg...cannort sae its nort my fault..its mine okayy..cox i sms you too much le..omg...sori..sori...anythin i will online pei you chat..cant sms you too much..okayy..if i sms you,you nvr reply i can understand..dun reply mi also can..dun wan ur sms burst can le..okay...dun post le la..haix..BYE...haix..

2008-08-31T20:41:00.002+08:00

currently blogging is to sae my piece of words to my classmates and the rest of my friends takin n level..n level is jus 2 daes away..must do ur best for the 3 subjects..okayy..i hope all of you able to come back for sec 5..do nort give up as the god has nort given up hope on you..he will go thru all the hard work wit you all de..most importantly is you must help urself..if you try ur best is de best thing you have done for urself..all i can sae is good luck to you all..espically cherilyn,maine,haidah,fazlin,calvin,darren and gatsper..i believe you all can do it as long as you put in all ur effort and hard work..

dar..i miss you so much..fri is de dae i love most..i able to see you..29 aug i am veri happy..able to spend so much time wit you..i am happy tat you are wit mi to go thru so much..tat you are there when i am scare tat i will be late for tuition..i also veri glad tat you dun mind i am so noisy inside de bus goin back..but you must get use to it.cox whenever i am worried abt being late i will be tat noisy de..haha..
dar.i love you so much..i am veri happy tat i have you as my beloved dar..todae is our 4th week together le..is our longest time together..i love you so much..

2008-08-25T18:46:00.003+08:00

another week pass..so far together with dar for 3 weeks le.can sae i am veri happy being with him..he is there for mi when i need him although we onli meet once a week..whenever its time to sae bye to him..i cant bear to..but there is no other choice..will jus have to wait for another week to arrive..i realli treasure alot in my tis relationship as there is a past between us..i had nort ever being so serious..ever since 3 weeks ago we started,i have nvr dream of leavin you..all i tink is i want to be wit you forever..tis is wat i tell myself..no matter wad i still wan to love you..so sori tat i nvr think of all tis in the past when i am wit you..tis time round i can sense the jealousy unlike in the past..i love you dar..really..it had onli being 2 daes without seein each other..i am missing you..but i will endure..time have help us maintainin our relationship..

got back our report book..i had done veri veri badly..the score i am scorin is nort wat i thru train student should score..as wat teacher sae.thru train student should score ard 4-7 points and yet i am scorin a 12..even if want to enter higher nitec..we must score ELMB3>19..i am scorin a 22..so its like realli badly done..wat my mom had sae its true..exam dun wan study..keep smsin..alwaes do last min revision is nort enough..so it time to wake up from laziness..must start listenin in class..do revision everydae..so can score better in the n level paper try out n for next yr..okay..gonna stop here..will post again other time.

dar..ily and imy..
all i want is ur love,ur trust and ur care!!

2008-08-18T18:53:00.005+08:00

Kei.Fiona.Yan.Qi

Twist!

Mii and Qi

heart formed by mine n qi's hand!

F love M !

F love M 4eva!!

all tis photo is taken when we went sentosa yesterdae..its was fun..but lookin forwards to go wit the rest of the friends who is takin n level..yesterdae went onli the 4 of us..but it still an enjoyable day!!

imy dar..1 week once see you is so sufferin for mi..
but i believe tis will be my longest relationship.ily!!